Regret - Jina Wallwork
Let it burn. Let the past destroy itself so the future can be revealed. If you step backwards, you will only be destroyed as this world falls away. There is a strong desire to heal the past while you have this final opportunity. You seek closure for all the trauma and sadness. You are desperately seeking a way to extinguish the flames and salvage what remains, but these fires must burn as the situation solidifies into your history. There are no words to speak and no solutions to be found. There is nothing you can do to improve the situation. Your healing must begin now. It will be a long walk through landscapes that you can no longer recognize, because your perspective of the world has been forever changed. Your mind will keep returning to this point in time, to the words you could have spoken and the actions you could have taken. It belongs to history and therefore it is fixed beyond the control of man or god. The solutions you seek are to problems that don't exist. It was once a problem in your life, but now it is an unalterable circumstance that must be accepted. It is now a part of the past and you must step into the future whether you are ready or not. You were incapable of changing these events while they occurred, so what makes you believe that you can alter them now?
This piece is a companion piece to 'Moving On' created in 2018.