To See the Future by Jina Wallwork
My dreams and desires might conspire against my own well being. It can be difficult to make decisions about what road to take because my imagination can lead me astray. I might believe that a situation will bring me happiness and joy, but when the reality arrives it could lead to regret and disappointment. I don’t know how I’ll feel next year. I can look to the future, yet my vision will always be incomplete. I can’t know how I will feel until the moment has arrived. My life is filled with the consequences of my past actions, and I know the decisions that I make now will shape my future. How do I make choices when I can’t see the consequences that could be created? I don’t know what will be right for the person I will become in the future, yet I know that person will be living with the consequences of my actions. I can’t avoid making decisions, so I must find a way of tackling these dilemmas.
I think about my life and one thing has been more precious than anything else. It is a joyful life because of the deep and meaningful connections that I have with the people I love. My life is filled with warmth and those relationships give my life meaning and purpose. This is the heart of my present life and I want it to continue into my future. When I make a decision I must prioritize the people I love. I know that it is foolish to make decisions based on the desires of others and this isn’t what I’m suggesting.
I will always make decisions based on what is right for my connections. Relationships flourish with time and energy. When I’m faced with a decision I will think about whether it makes space for my relationships or places a strain on the bond that connects us. I can’t know what is right for my loved ones, but I can make my decisions based on what will give strength to the connection. Can I be there when I’m needed? Can I share their sorrow and joy? Can I prioritize my life based on the love that I feel for those around me? I will aim to strengthen my connections. I will make choices that nurture the bonds that I value above everything else, and I know this will lead me to the path that is right for me.